BeCCa Thinks

I’m so stuck right now . I knw one thing for sure I dnt want to be with you anymore but your best friend that’s possible , I knw that sounds trashy but its how it is he made me smile before you ever even tried he told me how much he misses me he cares when I’m hurt he true to call because he misses my voice he checks in me when I dnt feel good but he’s so far away . But maybe I don’t want him at all maybe I want the guy that I knw will never want me the way I want him , the one who is moving so far away so soon the one I knw is a cheater the one that helped me through so much for so long the one that drunk texted me to tell me he misses me the one that once wrote me a poem that spelled out my name to show me what I meant to him . Maybe I want the guy that ignores all my texts and calls out of nowhere but he also texts me out of no where and tells me to visit him and tells me how cute I am and is a genuinely good the one that’s older and more mature and doing so good for himself . I feel like I always make the wrong choice on who to be with . I wish I cud combine all of you in one but that would ruin who you each are individually . I don’t knw who I want but I knw I’ll figure it out I just hope it’s not too late when I do .